:( Twilight Movie...

Okay so i will admit up front what a freak i am, but i have been following the casting of the up coming movie Twilight, the story of a highschool girl who falls in love with a vampire. i will say that i am happy with most of the cast they really did do a good job in finding appropriate actors. i really do with though in the rolls of Bell and Edward (the two main chariters) that they would go with two unknown actors. I think that that way no other movie is tied to it. as it stands right now the part of Edward will be played by Robert Pattinson , (otherwise known as Cedric Diggory) and the Bella will be played by Kristen Srewart... who has played in many movies. I know that if they did get new actors that they would not be able to play in many other roles sucessfully because they would always be identifyied as Edward and Bella (lol like that would be a bad thing though!!! :P)

 Edward                       

Bella

Here are some people that i would love to play the parts... my numer one that i really do hope they will cast is Rachel Leigh Cook for Alice

Also for jasper i would really like Trent Ford to play him... it just fits for me

Philosophy Thoughts

So I have been taking this philosophy class and I have loved it up until we got to modern philosophy and that is just depressing... everyone today is so pessimistic and I stopped and looked at myself and found that I am the same way sometimes but then at the same time by trying to break out of that I am alienating myself and I will continue to drive myself crazy because well life is so much easier when you go with the flow. Anyhow so a little while ago we talked about cameau... I think that is spelled right but I don’t know… Anyhow he gave this giant lecture/paper on how philosophy’s only real question is suicide or not! It was very... odd and depressing class period. His argument was that there was no point to this life. We are not here for any reason that our lives are so meaningless... and that is well so not true! But it reminded me of a song that I heard on the radio by Brook Dunn called God must be busy... I remember the first time I heard it I was appalled that people could think that. Every time I hear the song I just want to scream at the radio to anyone who is listening that the song is a lie! But then putting that together with my observation of how pessimistic people are these days it made sense... and it made me sad! Because well because of the truth I know about the gospel I know that there is meaning to our lives and that god does care and that there is a rhyme and reason to all the awful and horrid things that happen. It is sad and awful how many things that happen that are just plain bad and horrific! My little brothers best friend was diagnosed with a tumor that is life changing at the age 11. My bishop’s family was killed in a horrific accident that killed two of his children and his wife. I just made a new friend that I love dearly that I just found out there is a chance she may not live to see another year. And then you look at just the simple things that are so bad and awful. A 3 year old getting stung by a bee, a fender bender, having just finished curling your hair only to find that it is going to be raining the rest of the day. Life sucks a lot of the time but if all you do is focus on all these bad things you will never know the good things that come of them... life is too short to not live laugh and love as much as you can. This quote seems to explain it "for a long time is seemed to me that life was about to begin- real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten though first, some unfinished business, still time to be served, or a debt to be paid. Until at last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life. This perspective has helped me to see there is not way to happiness. Happiness is a journey, not a destination" One other thought. If you were to loose yourself in the service of others, Im sure you would discover that life is so full of meaning and love and you would pity small minded class' that try to toss a twist in preception of life and hope others could find the joy you found after a long hard life of loving service.

Ponys

Ever sense i was a little girl my dad has told me a story. Its a werid story, just like my dad is at times, but it has helped me more than he will ever know, and in more ways than i thought it ever would! There were a group of scientists that were observing pestimists and optimists. They took two little girls, one an pestimist and the other an optimist. They placed the pesitmist in a giant room full of the newest and best toys! Every toy that you could imagine. They placed the optimistic girl in a room that was full of horse manure, piled up nearly to the ceiling. The scientists left the girls in the rooms for one hour, and then went back to see how each girl was doing. They first checked the pestimistic girl. The girl was in the middle of the room screaming and yelling that she wanted new toys, that the ones that she had were not good enough. Most of the toys had been smashed up against the wall and layed in peices everywhere. They took the needed notes and let the screaming girl leave. They then proceded to the little girl in the room full of manure. The Girl was digging through the manure laughing and having a wonderful time. The scientists were puzzled and asked the girl what she was doing. She looked at them and smiled saying "where ever there is manure there must be a Pony!" i realize that this story is odd, but whenever i start to get mad at life or my family and friends, my dad always looks at me and says "are you being the little girl in the room full of manure?" Now as much as i want to just glare at him when he says this, and most of the time i do. It always make me wonder which of the girls i really would be! I made it a life goal to try and be optimistic, and when i try and follow this goal and life always seems to be a little bit better.